goodboy

my father called me

boy

my grandfather looked me over

and

called me

goodboy

from the first time

i ever saw him

not toughboy

not bigboy

not fastboy

not smartboy

i knew too well that

goodboy fit

i did not want 

such a perfect

fit

i wanted to be

more than that

but

was not able

to be more than that

i was a

good boy

not that goodboy

was bad

it was without

spark

i was no trouble

for anyone

good natured

obeyed all

schoolwork done

readily adapted

easily overlooked

never best or worst

never quickest or slowest

never biggest or smallest

just a

good boy

wanting to be more

than that

yet

in calling me

goodboy

my grandfather

helped me be

more than that

good boy

the last time

i ever saw

my grandfather

i had become a man

he looked me over

and called me

Hollywood

Every

single

bit  

My life reads like a book,

every single word of it.

Reading every single word of it

has lifted me to face and love myself,

every single bit of myself.

Loving every single bit of myself

has lifted me to face

 and love those around me

and to feel that others around me

can face and love me

with every word I read

and with every story written.

Every single word of it

is every single tug from my soul.

Every single bit of it

is every single bit of me.

My life reads like a book

That I never wish to

finish.

He took everything for granted

He took everything for granted

Except for me, so it seemed

Why he valued me I will never know

I did not deserve

Why he made a way forward for me

I did not earn

Why he left me more than I gave back

  I did not understand

He took everything for granted

    Except for me, so it seemed